CRUSH ----- This woman I know I like the way she laughs-- it's always warm and relaxed it surrounds me comfortably and tickles me into a smile Oh! and her smile I like the way she smiles-- genuine & so wide it's contagious! it splits her face right in two! Such a curious creature so lovely she is both the simple girl next door and the mysterious "woman in red" it's impossible not to be drawn to her No doubt about it-- I like her, very much and I think about her far more than I should. ------------------------------------------------ NIGHT MOVES ----------- Fingers running thru my hair I'm kissing her skin-- neck--shoulders--waist--hips-- sweat. Soft moans forcing their way from her throat--raspy sounds mounting pleasure--the heat. Soft groans thru clenched teeth she shudders all over hot sensations--draining me. I begin to tremble she sighs my name. Awake now--tingling I think I recognize her body in the dark--but I am alone while she sleeps somewhere holding her own--? another--? Obsidian ache, I'm shivering-- I try to crawl back into my dreaming of a perfect rose-- in full bloom.
ALL I WANT ---------- All I want is to cook you a few good meals hear you laugh-- a lot hold you when you're weary smile when I hear your name be the one you lean on-- when thigs get tough. All I want is to be your lover not your wife or mother-- or a nameless regret. All I want is everything. CLEAN EXIT ---------- as we part company you and i and her a friendly innocent platonic chaste embrace goodnight-- and i watch you walk away with her the world has nothing to offer that quite compares to your arms encircling me. (no title) ---------- sitting in the bar watching you and talking with you felt so good... but sometimes, when I see you I want to run away and hide from you... crawl deep inside myself. I can't look into your eyes or you will see... you will know the truth. you will know how much your laughter means to me. REGRET POEM ----------- We can always wonder what it would be like if... if you didn't have a girlfriend if I had better timing... if I were a different woman who could steal your heart away-- like some cavalier princess charming. We can always wonder wouldn't it... couldn't it... shouldn't it be easier than this? I'll always wonder what it would be like if... REM SLEEP --------- I see you there-- night after night waiting for me in a dream I can't forget. There's some kind of magic here it soothes/tortures me. Tenderness in your eyes softer than a whispered lullabye... and white heat-- a fire which consumes my very soul. I should run away from those eyes-- but something pulls me in-- I don't want to turn away not now. Fantasy-- safe enough to let you get so close to share this passion share every secret. Slow motion replay night after night... Don't wake me... NO INTRODUCTIONS (PLEASE!) -------------------------- She simply walked into the bar-- and I saw it-- the flash of uncertain recognition shadowed her face... a look all too familiar painfully familiar as I grow older! Jigsaw memories trickle back: 1990? 1991? I'm waking up/coming to in her bed-- pulsating headache-- Southern DIS-Comfort! Jolting reality hits hard and fast "Good morning Honey" I don't remember her name! Oh, God... did I tell her I loved her lastnight? Affirmative, though I'm treating her like a whore by rushing off without another word. Outside I struggle to focus on less than familiar surroundings San Francisco? Oakland? Fumbling with the keys, I'm slouched behind the wheel-- aware now that I am sore and reeking of her too strong perfume and stale cigarette smoke-- and sex and latex and cheap liquor. I force the door open heaving violently onto wet asphalt-- I am the epitome of neo-soft-butch-cool! She simply walked into the bar-- hand in hand with her "wife" of ten years now. There is a silent exchange-- nervous smiles and terror as I make my exit once again, without introductions...
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